One with the teacups

BUT THEY WERE SO CUTE.

*runs away*

That may be one of several pieces of jewelry I bought when I splurged today lskfhlsfhaslf

I feel like Jin has decided that whenever someone he knows is doing something, he has to do one better. xD Pi gets a single, he gets a movie and a single. Pi gets a solo con, he wants a solo con with like, a million more shows. Kame gets a drama (which I will probably care about as much as I did... basically any Kame drama since Tatta, rofl), he puts out a mini-album. Hell, he even said that the reason he did An-an was because he wanted to do it better than everyone else. XDDD Oh, my spoiled boy. ♥ I adore you so. Even if you are guzzling up all my money. :(

Speaking of money, I need to hurry up and open a bank account, like, NOW. Because I really need to get my money back in my American bank account so I can make sure I have enough for tuition. I've been having some slightly depressing issues trying to figure out what's best to do, but I'm trying not to ruin the holidays for myself and figure out the best thing to do. I'm also still coughing and congested in the chest area, and I can't tell if I'm getting better or worse, and if I should go to the doctor regardless. Ugh. I hate things pertaining to health. And money. Usually they're interconnected so DOUBLE HATE. :|

rofl I am not a happy panda today. xD I'm not particularly upset or anything, I'm just, idk. It's the ~*~last week~*~ and I feel guilty that I don't think I'll miss everyone as much as I should and I feel bad that I was too poor to do anything with them and I feel even worse for not feeling guilty that I care more about people I already know and hanging out with them than I do for trying to get to know the new people. And I'm just tired. I want it to be over already so I can rest.

I could talk about what's bothering me but I already rambled at Scribe so I won't. Instead I'll just go write my last hols scene so I can send it in, since I'm tired of looking at it. Once again I don't like it, but that's how I always feel, so not too surprising there. xD

I leave you with a picture of a dog that is almost as cute as mine.



EDIT:

Pixisticks says:
Oh well, it's the last week
Pixi's Mom says:
Yes.. try not to get in trouble with all your free time
Pixisticks says:
Ahaha, I won't
Pixi's Mom says:
do they have stalking laws in Japan? ha ha
Pixisticks says:
>.>
Pixisticks says:
Mondays and Thursdays are free for women at that club :D :D :D
Pixisticks says:
hee hee
Pixi's Mom says:
That does it - I’m writing Jin’s mother

My mommy is mean to me. XD

See title.

*collapse* It's almost too hot to post, but I will try. XD

Anyway, ( this is what I decided )

So basically it boils down to I'M GOING TO JAPAN IN TWO MONTHS!

It'll be so good to go back. *_* I miss it! ♥ Yay~

Um. What else. My desktop has been acting up lately, so I did a system restore all the way back to May. Which I think means I've lost my Sims 2 stuff, but that's okay. *flops* I haven't been playing lately--I downloaded a polygamy hacked wedding arch, but it doesn't work, so screw that. 8D Um. Yeah. Oh! I've been playing An Untitled Story, which is a game about an egg and it is wonderful. Everyone should play. ♥

Lastly:

The bad news:

[-] I didn't get the Bridging scholarship. :\ This really sucks, because I was depending on that for my housing for Japan this year. *sigh* So I'll have to look elsewhere and keep applying. X.x Ugh. Money sucks.

[-] Cramps are the devil. X.x X.x X.x

[-] My dad called. *makes face* I have to call him back. *makes worse face*

[-] Job hunting is fail, so far. :\ I've been out searching with grandma, and I have to do some sleuthing on my own. Any tips? When the unemployment rate is this high, I know I shouldn't be picky, but I kind of need an office job. I can't be forced to stand for eight hours without being allowed to sit down, my blood pressure isn't high enough for that. (Mom thinks I should go for modeling agencies lololol yeah right)

[-] California is made of fail.

The good news:

[+] I got to see Kitteh yesterday! :DDDDDD It was fun and wonderful. ♥ Even if she tried to poison me. She showed me this which Sarah is apparently too cool to watch (:| :| :|) and this which is ten kinds of hilarious. XD

[+] I've been eating good food and having lots of fun. *_* We went to Olive Garden, and I've had chicken tacos and fettuccine and eggs and bacon and biscuits and alskhfalsfh. <3333 Delicious. Also, we went to the movies on Sunday! We saw Angels & Demons and it was really good. <3333 I don't remember much of the book, so that lowered my standards. xD

[+] I worked for my uncle today and he gave me $40 for it. :D Yay! See, why can't I get just a simple typing job like that, all the time?

[+] My animals are adorable and wonderful. >w< My cousin falls under that category too. XD

[+] This makes me alskfhaslkfhsalfh. >w< So sweet! ♥ ♥ ♥ ILU GUYS A LOT A LOT. :D

The stuff I am neutral about:

[+-] I work for my uncle again on Thursday and Friday. I don't really want to, especially because the Tuesday one is super early, but money is still money. So I think tomorrow I'm going to nurse my cramps and clean out my closet so I can finish unpacking (lololol cries) and get together all the stuff I don't want anymore. And maybe do some more job/scholarship hunting. Today I will finish off by vegging on the couch with my doggie in my lap and my wife-chan on the computer. :D ♥

ilu guys~

Everyone should love raocow the way I do. XD I've watched that video, like, fifty times, but it's still hilarious.

So I mentioned my crazy dream from a while ago, but I never posted it! Silly me. So I will post it now, before I forget.

( Of pirates and trains and malls, oh my! )

Yeah. I don't know either.

Have another raocow video. XD

So, I don't know if I mentioned it, but a while back my roommate brought her boyfriend over they pretty much had sex while they thought I was asleep. After they did it more than once I left her a note on the bed ('coz she didn't come back before I went to sleep) telling her that I could hear them and it made me uncomfortable. Yesterday her boyfriend stopped by (during the day) and he actually apologized to me about it. XD I really appreciated that. I still don't understand how a nice guy could be with someone like Kujira-san, as I have dubbed her (or maybe Hogeisen-san *Shot for being mean*), but hey. Randomly, we ended up on the topic of boybands (because he asked me about my Jin poster) and actually talked for a little bit. XD It was rather nice. She's not so bad when we're actually talking, it's just that we... never talk. *dies*

( To do list update )

GOING HOME IN EXACTLY 7 DAYS

GUYS. I CAN'T WAIT. THIS IS MY TO-DO LIST FOR HOME:

-EAT REAL FOOD
-SQUISH AND LOVE MY PUPPY TO DEATH
-SEE EVERYBODY AND SQUISH AND LOVE THEM
-GET A JOB
-REVEL IN AIR CONDITIONING AND CARS AND WORKING ELEVATORS

alskfhalfhaslkfh *flails with glee*

On that note, have a rant.

( rant )

*breathes*

Unrelatedly: Join sweetbitchjuice. THE BEST KAT-TUN COMM EVER. XD ♥ ♥ ♥ I love it. On the subject of Jin, these photos are gorgeous. I particularly love this one. Everything about it--the way it's slightly off-center, the way he looks like some loner writer in the middle of nowhere a la Johnny Depp in Secret Window. *_* Beautiful. Something about the pose in this one is nice, too. *_* Very natural. And I love pics like this, of him reading. So cute. *_____________* Not too fond of the sneakers-with-a-suit look, though. Jin, stop watching Korean videos. It makes you look stupid, not cool.

Seriously, somebody explain that to me. XD Who on earth thinks it's cool to wear tennis shoes with a suit? If I saw somebody walking down the street like that, I'd wonder what happened to their real shoes. *shakes head* (Don't actually explain it to me. I don't care that much.)

Memes! ( Under a cut to save space. )

:D

Japanese final tomorrow, then work, then the post office. Wish me luck!

Oh yeah, and last but not least, I'm going to post the poem I wrote for the scholarship entry. It's about my grandma! It's not perfect, and I'm not really comfortable posting original work (especially since it's rough, though I did edit it), but here you go. If you like. :) rofl, please don't steal. It will make you look bad. XD

( This is My... )

♥

( Explanation of yesterday )

But yeah. That's basically what happened. I'm feeling a little better now (stopped crying, anyway) even though I didn't sleep well last night. This weekend I have to be active and get all this stuff taken care of, because finals week is coming up and I cannot be stressed during that time. My Japanese oral midterm is 20 minutes long. D: *flails* Panic!

( to-do list )

I think that's all. Going to go collapse now. Sorry I don't really have anything fandom-y to talk about--I watched a bunch of Anego clips last night? idk. Jin makes me feel better. Happy birthday Koyama~ lend me some of your genki, ne? Also the fact that Harvard sent my mom's company a mousepad design with the word "education" misspelled on it. XDDDD HEY GUYS, I CAN SPELL "EDUCATION". I CAN GET INTO HARVARD.

That will never not be funny.

EDIT: Linking to the polls to vote about the CD issue again: KTLOVE and JOR. I could post the entire rant I did over there, but I won't, because I'm way more concerned with the above list (and I really don't care that much to waste energy on it, though a great big "Fuck You" to the bit that is quite obviously directed at me since I never saw the post. I'M NOT PSYCHIC, YOU ASSHOLE). Still, the KTLOVE one is a tie right now, so tie-breaker would be good. :3 I don't even know how the JOR one is going to work (majority or adding them up? And does anyone else notice that the options for "no" are a little unfairly biased?), but vote there too, ne. ♥

:( I hate Mondays.

So to continue with the theme of really cheesy Indian movies, we watched this. It's not as funny as the last one, but I like how she can make arrows magically appear out of thin air. XD (Kaali scares me, though. Like, a lot. O_O) Sadly, I don't think this clip will teach me how to dance seductively, so uh. XD Yeah. (Indian clothing is sooo pretty, though. *_*)

STILL haven't heard from Nichidai, but the study abroad guy said to go ahead and start filling out the forms. So yeah, I've been doing that. They want to know weird things. o.O I don't remember when I entered elementary school! *falls over* On school-related topics, I also completed the FAFSA, finally. I did not like telling them I had some money. :| Fail. Hopefully they actually give me something this time, though. >.< Blaaaah. I also had a dream that this week was spring break, but also that my essay for my tea class was due today, and I promptly panicked because I didn't know it was suddenly April 22nd. XD It was horrible and reminded me of this comic aksfhlafh. Terrifying.

I told myself I wouldn't download album leaks, but I forgot about that as soon as the first Care leak came out, so w/e. XD I will probably have about fifty versions of this song by the time I actually get the CD, but I don't mind. *_* I also really, really like 1582! It's nothing like I was expecting. I'm quite pleased--someday for somebody was okay, w/o notice?? was lame, etc. etc., so I'm really pleased. I hope the performance is really good. *_* (Though I could do without the creepy licking noises.) Yay, Kame! I really look forward to the rest of the songs, heeeeee.

My roommate's brought her boyfriend over the past couple of nights, and while I'm not really comfortable with him spending the night (if only because I get up several hours earlier and thus it would be awkward to change in the same room), he's surprisingly nice. A lot more considerate than she is. XD I'm surprised! Then again, opposites do attract, so w/e (either that or there's something terribly wrong with his head). So yeah. Um. Nothing else exciting there. (Also, seriously, why do fat people insist on wearing skinny jeans? IT JUST MAKES YOU LOOK FATTER. ALSO, PULL YOUR PANTS UP YOU STUPID BITCH. AUUUUUGH. *breathes*)

Oh yes, and wife-chan has changed her name! >w< froidaux~ it's so fancy. x3 *obligatory mention*

Memes! Because I have nothing better to do with my time. One ganked from Kitteh, the other from anthropopathy. :3

( I don't wanna love you, if love leaves me this cold )

I had more, but now I can't find them. Oh well. :D~

I keep meaning to post, and then I don't. :\ I've started like five memes, but things pile up and get in the way and posting/commenting/etc. take energy that I just don't have to spare. Let me give you a glimpse of my schedule, even though I know most of you don't care:

( Why I am taking hiatus )

So, yeah. I'm going to announce a semi-hiatus. I'll still be browsing the f-list and commenting here or there, but there will be almost no posts until at least next week is over.

In other news, I turned in all my study abroad application stuff. Now I just have to wait until March 1st to find out about it. In the meantime, I will be applying for scholarships left and right (that's actually my plan for this weekend--glorious, glorious three-day weekend--so if you see me goofing off, kick me) because right now I can't even afford another semester here, let alone a plane ticket to Japan. I would really, really, really like to go home over the summer, but I don't see it happening. Considering I don't have time to breathe, I'm not really upset about it, but it's still depressing. :( And yes, this is another 'I wanna go home' rant, but considering how uncomfortable it is here (I have a list of things I could whine about in my head, but I won't), I am entitled, so stfu.

I'm so tired. I was ready to fall asleep at about 7 p.m. last night but we had a fire drill. :\ Teh lame. *sigh*

Anyway, I hope you all are doing well. Those of you who have tests and whatnot (spoon ♥), study hard, but don't overwork yourself! You'll make me worry. *huggles* :) ♥ ♥ ♥ I'll see you soon. Maybe.

And this is why I gave up scholarship searching last semester. :| I am no longer a high school student. I am not a native Hawaii resident. I am not a graduate student. SO STOP GIVING ME SCHOLARSHIPS I'M NOT ELIGIBLE FOR. Stupid scholarship search websites. I swear, they just make everything more complicated. T_T *curls up miserably* I will probably have to resort to student loans just because I can't make heads or tails of this crap. That's how depressing this is. Ugh.

In slightly less whiny news, I started my new job today! ♥ It was fun. And pretty easy, except I suck at sorting mail (Korean and Chinese names all look the same ._.). They start me on phones tomorrow, though, which is scary. O_O;;; Here's to hoping I don't screw up. *crosses fingers* They gave me goodies, though. xD Choco~ And crap, I left my jacket there. Wah. I also just now discovered that the restaurant has an email, so I emailed them about the paycheck they never sent me. They haven't gotten back yet, so I'll email them again soon. Bastards.

When did posting often become such a hassle. xD I had other stuff I was gonna say, but now I don't remember. Uh.

Re: Jin's facebook: I like how people think that if they somehow discover what it is, they'll suddenly be BFF with him. Naive little fangirl hearts, I like to hear them break. 8D ♥ (/creepy) Personally I only go on facebook to superpoke everybody and write on their walls. Then I don't go on again for three months, so. xD Um. Why do I have one, again?

asfhalkfh I started gathering up my stuff for my study abroad application. askfhalfhk scary. ._. I still need to print some stuff out and get my letters of rec, but at least I know who I'm going to ask. But meh. I still have no idea where I'm going to get the money. :\ I don't even have enough money for another semester here, hence why I've been looking for scholarships, because I really don't want to have to resort to student loans. My job pays $8.50 an hour, but I'm only allowed to work 10 hours at that one, and the other one pays $9.00 an hour (Yes I have two) but it only meets for one hour twice a week. You can have more than one session, but still. :\ If anybody has any tips on good ways to get scholarships without wanting to cry in frustration, please share them. >.< Any chance I could just live under a bridge somewhere in Japan? 8D

OH YEAH AND MY JAPANESE CLASS HAS LIKE ONE SPOT OPEN BUT I CAN'T REGISTER AGAIN UNTIL THE 9TH. WTF I HATE THIS SYSTEM AUGH.

MY GIRLPARTS HURT AND MY TOES ARE COLD. I HATE BEING FEMALE. *crawls under blankets*

I'm sorry I'm so whiny, guys. I'll be back to happy!Pixi soon, I'm sure. >.< *opens arms for huggles*

THIS POST IS NOT GOING TO BE COHERENT BECAUSE I'M DRUGGED UP ON MEDICINE AND BECAUSE OF THE AMAZINGNESS OF THIS ALBUM


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JUST FLAIL WITH ME, OKAY

LEAVE LOTS OF FLAIL HERE SO THAT WHEN I WAKE UP AND COME BACK WE CAN FLAIL TOGETHER

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH

EDIT: OH MY GOD I GET NINETEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS IN FINANCIAL AID THIS IS INCREDIBLE